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Walking In Joy- Crazy Day

Hi there, I hope you are well. I have to confess today was one of those days that I felt that I could not see straight. One thing lead to another and I feel that the day unraveled and now as I collect my thoughts at the end of my day I discovered a few things that God is showing me that I hope to help you.

So my morning was started with my husband accidentally setting the emergency alarm off, frantically I awoke and proceeded to call the emergency response line. Unsuccessfully trying to convince them that everything was OK. As my husband ran off to work and the receptionist sternly told me that my husband did not only set off the alarm, he set off the emergency hostage alarm and that there was nothing that she could do and that she hoped I was truly safe.

Seconds after hanging up two officers were at my door pounding to come in. My sweet little daughter was still shaken up and so I asked her to go was our two little dogs are sectioned off in the house and cuddle with them until I could comfort her properly. While doing this my daughter mistakenly let our little Maltese Rudy out, who has a Doberman complex, he started barking at the officers as if they were intruders.

Luckily I caught him just in time to open the door, the officers were so kind and could clearly see the chaos. They shut off the alarm toured the house and realized that; we were not in any danger and graciously left.

Later that day I heard a commotion in my daughter’s room and asked her what was going on, she said: “ Mom, I am lassoing, I am having all these bad thoughts and so I am binding them and lassoing them to God.” I responded with a thoughtful but quick response and proceeded to gather some dirty laundry and continue on my endless to-do list.

Later, I was gripped by the clarity that my daughter had in discerning and dealing with her negative thoughts. I made sure to praise her and apologies to her for my lack of doing the same with my negative thoughts as well as being in too much of a rush to better enjoy those moments with her.

I let this situation mark the tone for my day, the rest of the day followed with one mishap after another. Before I realized it was evening, and I had skipped my Bible study and with a little free time that I did muster; I found myself compulsively looking at my Pinterest boards for inspiration to cheer me up. Only left with a longing for a life that looks radically different than my own. This discontentment, by comparison, has infiltrated my day, and the root I have noticed is this compulsion of my Pinterest habit.

Oh, it hurts to say it but I need a Pinterest detox. I really love all the possibilities of Pinterest; being able to see beautiful homes, cool craft ideas, recipes; but I have not been using it properly. I have been coveting the perfectly clean and decorated homes, and the five-course dinners presented in a beautiful table with fresh cut flowers, not to mention the fabulous wardrobes that fit perfectly on the size 4 body I wish
to be one day…….

I repent today for coveting and for focusing on an imaginary life instead of the poetically beautiful life that the Lord has planted me in. So I have declared it; I am going on a Pinterest detox for a month.

“Do not conform to the pattern of
this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. “
Romans 12:2 (NIV)

I did a similar detox a few years ago with Facebook and found it very freeing. Now I check my account maybe once a month and refuse to have it on my phone or get push notifications and so I will give you an update on what I learn from my Pinterest detox and I would love to hear your opinion on how Pinterest and/or facebook have impacted you positively and or negatively.

“For everything in the world-the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life–comes not from the Father but from the world”
1 John 2:16

Lastly, the other thing that has really been pronounced as a thought pattern that I have to surrender is whether silly days like today or other more intense days were I am having to rush my daughter to the hospital for the fifth time this year or when my husbands commissions are cut again in an already financially tight situation or a tragic death of a loved one, I fall into a justifying mode trying to somehow; with my feeble attempt to understand God’s will and reasoning.

I find myself frustrated and sometimes bitter, but the real repentance is in trying to bring God down to my level instead of surrendering the “why’s” and focusing on responding in a positive way that edified Him regardless of the circumstance. I’m not sure if you can relate to any of this, but I urge you to look at your day and see what you might have to surrender that is unraveling your days. For me, I am certain that there needs to be much less of me and much more of Him. Till next time.

Sending you a big hug,

Ursula